The Challenge

As you can see I am not the best at keeping up with my blog. Life gets busy and sometimes blogging just slips my mind. I enjoy blogging, or writing, because it helps me unwind. It helps me dig deep, think logically, and express myself in a manner that I sometimes struggle with. So, I decided to take a challenge. For the next few weeks I will be writing about different topics to not only help my well-being but give you a chance to get to know me a little better. My promise is to be honest, brutally honest, so that you have a better understanding of who I am.

The first pressing topic is.....current relationship (or lack there of)! This is always an awkward topic for me. I mean when your not in a relationship and you can't rant and rave about your significant other than there isn't much to talk about haha. Well, I have been through my fair share of love (sort of) and heartbreaks. I'll break it down for you. I don't think I've ever been in love. I would consider it being in "infatuation." I say that because I think love is always reciprocated. There is a mutual love for each other, a selflessness. The boy, and I mean boy, I was dating at the time didn't reciprocate that same love. We semi-dated for a few months and both realized that it wasn't what we needed or were looking for. I was heartbroken, but I've realized it was due to the fact that I was more fond of the idea of him, rather then he himself. It took me awhile to realize that. Fortunately, we're still friends (we have been since high school). 

A previous friendship that has really shaped my perspective on relationships was with one of my best friends from college. Since we met we were great friends. He was my "go to." Throughout college my roommates were all pretty much in serious relationships (the ones that are married/getting married now). So, he and I did pretty much everything together. He always had some intentions of dating but after a gentle turn down we remained friends. You know those typical boy/girl friendships, being "best friends" but not sure if we would be good together type of thing? Welp, that was us. About a month after I graduated we decided, or I guess I decided, to try it out (sounds like I'm trying a new food or something). Things were great and I really valued the foundation of friendship we had before any sort of relationship started. However, things ended pretty sourly. We had our differences and his perspective really changed. I later realized how much of a blessing that really was, and how God was in complete control of the whole thing. 

Currently, there is no man in my life and I am okay with it. Lately, I've realized the importance of my friendships, the foundation and basis for successful relationships. In both previous instances it has really benefited me and "him" to know each other before deciding on what to do. Although, neither of them turned out the way I would have planned I am still thankful for their outcomes. 

Most importantly, I have realized you can't love without God. God is love. Try and grasp that, GOD IS LOVE. He is the secret to love, because he IS love. There is no love without him. Mark 12:28-29 states that clearly, saying,

29 “The most important one,” answered Jesus, “is this: ‘Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one.[e] 30 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’[f] 31 The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’[g] There is no commandment greater than these.”

It is the Great Commandment. It is so important that our foundation is founded on the Lord's love. I am by no means an expert on relationships, but I know the importance of modeling a marriage after God's love, cause like I said, He is love. Since all relationships are based on God's timing, I am patiently waiting in His love. I'm fully embracing that love since there is none like it. There is no greater love that the love he provides for me daily. 

~Holly